Today I feel so very much in love. I love the man that came into my life four years ago and with each day my love grows for him even more. He has become so much of my life. As I cleaned the house today all I could think about is marrying him, making him mine forever. I have so many insecurities within myself from my past and I will get over them at some point in my life. I have such a fear of this wonderful man finding a woman that is "better" than me, a woman that my catch his eye. He is the best man for me and I can feel it within my heart. As I lay next to him I can feel this feeling that I can't even describe, I guess a feeling of peace. The love inside of me is so strong that as I type this tears come to my eyes, tears of happiness. I always go back to the day I fell back in love with this wonderful man, the day I wanted to kick myself because I had been selfish and let this man leave out of my life. I will never again let him leave, I will always fight for him, and I will always better myself for him. You are stuck with me forever Durand and noone will ever have the power to change that.......