Adoption

Have you ever felt your heart break? I mean truly break into what felt like a thousand pieces? You know the saying “If you love him/her you will let him/her go?” I know that saying all to well. I have felt my heart break into a thousand pieces 15 years ago and it is still not complete. I know what it is like to let someone go because I love her. My first daughter was born 15 years ago and 15 years ago I placed her in another family’s arms. I felt my heart break that day, really felt it break. I have gone years with my heart broken and it has not been repaired, sometimes I ask myself will it ever be repaired? I think that in the future if my daughter comes to meet me then maybe my heart will fill whole again. Don’t get me wrong, letting my little angel go was not a mistake, was not something I have or ever will regret, it was beautiful, it was amazing, and it is something that has made me love so much more. My daughter’s family is amazing, so amazing that her mother has stayed in contact with me for the past 15 years. She has sent me updates, pictures, and love. She has given me the hope that “our” daughter loves and will always love me. Her mother has stayed connected with me and has loved me. I am proud to day I am a “birth” mother, I am proud to say my beautiful angel was set free 15 years ago and she has grown to be even more beautiful. I let my sweet angel go 15 years ago and as I watch her from a distance I know what a beautiful life I created. I know what a wonderful family I had a part in creating. Adoption can be such a beautiful option.